"leftovers" is a word that only makes me smile. Someone used it in the most beautiful and intelligent context to me fifteen years ago. The way only the child with her innocent, so alive, mind can.
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Except it also has a story
behind it as good as Homer meets Kushner, and I win...
ish...
I hate seeming like i have
scatterbrainitis.
BUt a month or more ago after
last ever two 'causes' - environmental, yet again due utterly two faced
absurd communication. i.e. lies...
people pleasing. It's an 'illness'
... i knew fait accompli is the only always best thing; Accept all had two
faces, or three. And thus it is the kairos..(Ecclesiastes 3 in one word) and
gradually i have elegantly disconnected from everyone....except one - she
deserves a book written about her. It's weird...
And i shall not get the
promised wages. But the experience - to LIVE within her mad world, is worth it
as material.
Good for me.... leftovers will
soon recommence - many spaces to fill in, and even some new art house movies
from the floating lady - wow!
BUt when i say " i have
got rid of 90% of contacts in phone/ backed up in address book... " it is
a real end of era. Only hope now...Franscesca (todays wonderful ‘find’ on the
bus) concurs... she fab her dad gave a Reith lecture!
Accept no hope. Only passing on
real deep literature and art to the next generation, has any chance of fixing
what an utter dumbed down mess we are in...
Me i am always just fine. But i
disconnect with grace and elegancy....
Never mind the greatest movie of all time.Never mind an exposition upon how a real man or his female equivalent sometimes has to get into a bit of jolly good old fashioned abduction and kidnapping
sadly not available as it was only a few years ago, free on the Tube...
"Sanctuary!" - Charles Laughton as 'The Hunchback of Notre Dame' (1939)
THIS POST TO BE IMPROVED now i am in my grove.. really full steam ahead...no matter what
this is just a taste.... if anyone knows what words are for that is, rather than ordering slaves to cook your dinner
All the way time... this will also be 'published' one day in a book form about the books...and films too! and poetry...
And even greatest songs ...
The 'blue book' this
started with nearly a decade ago, will be transcribed soon into these webpages.
And then at least 2 or 300 great literature books and arthouse films added to
the list.
The last decade i have trawled
the lists of arthouse and independent films watching 1000s, and meandered
the bookshops picking up the very best of 20th c lit (ehh...sorry except for
Rachel K, I can't find much that's as good from the 21st C). I will
report in findings in full.
Will be ready by middle of
September
unfortunately to have a little
'privacy' every few years i have created a new google id so my bookmarks are
all over a fair few accounts...but there all still there. When i have time.
Unedited highlights below.
Perhaps the greatest of the greats ...just in case the local animal murderers
get me any time soon.... no not the 'hunt'. the ones who take public money and
even more public regard, regard for suposedly protecting the environment
when they are in fact brutally burying alive badgers with cubs in their sets
(2020 me filming from the undergrowth) and causing massive disturbance to
protected birds; nesting areas that same summer... they shoot far far
more lethally than any drunken huntsman..
but there is this one film...
from the 30s ..maybe my best find of all, i cannot yet find again...i have many
notes. I remember most without needing them but this one evades...like someone
else....who knows the name of the assasins... have been and would be
WHAT THIS LIST IS
apart from being a jumbled mess
written up thus far rather speedily with a laptop with a dodgy keyboard - yet
to be fixed when i have 3 more hours of life fixing something that should never
have broken in the first place ..and blogger doesnt want to provide the red
squiggle at the moment which is the spell check system 15 years off and on...
I have 20 years not had a tv
occasionally i will hear of
something (On Front Row usually) televised that sounds top of the zeitgeist and
will look in on the pirate sites. What i see is predictable. Usually
overblown.
Exceptions Atlanta Donald
Glover's masterpiece. Other endlessly top rate series are crass. Sopranos is a
perverted bling obsessed nasty piece of work as the supposedly emotionally intelligent
hero, rather than cuts a vital part offhis enemy in revenge, goes to his sexy
shrink first, doesnt cut off the necessary bit....but always does later
on...when hes having a really bad day, as someone threatens his pile of bling.
This is crass nastiness of the nth degree in that The Guardian rate it as
somehow some new ground in art... fuck off ..gratuitous violence dressed up in
stylised psychowhatever is even worse than straightforward violence.
Easier and better examples of the
litmus test.
There may be two valid reasons
for art: to show us how to live (well), and to show us the realities of our
fellow humans.
In respect of the latter,
reality is pretty bizarre and often rather sad...and getting more bizarre and
sadder.
The former is easy. Take Erin
Brockovic. Do something tough, that hurts...and in the end one evolves (victory
never feels special - been there got t shirt). Or maybe more important
Tangerines shows us universal rules of vanity and ignorance may be just a
LITTLE bit..transcended by a humble man who has some wisdom..and bravely
applies it.
Ditto Even The Rain..
The corollary - in fact it is
almost in both categories, is Nomadland.
I know van people. No matter
HOW hard life is, how shit, how damaging people have been, you get in your van
and Smile...no matter how smelly you are, no matter how poor...
van life is ASIDE...normal bourgeois
pretention and concerns....above really. I have never encountered a van person
who does not have at least a partially lit unusual light in theitr eyes
Nomadland is one of the wprst movies i have ever seen. It parasitises a false
self pitying version of .unreality...for effect only.
Ditto Waller Bridge and her
"anal sex" in every other sentence.
Art... doesn't need cheap
shots.
And perhaps the best example of
all is Sampson and Delilah - out of bleakness - the real true so beautifully
portrayed bleakness, eventually the human spirit finds peace and something a
bit healthier. There is no better film on how to live..
But the issue is we have a
whole slew of films especially the last 15 years which we are TOLD are 'good.
when they do neither of these two functions well. Moonlight a good
example. And then a range of ..for want of a better word
"ethnic" films....sorry Roma was flat and lifeless.In other words
anything with a bit of the developing nation about it seems to get extra bonus
points for just having been made. That is no way to welcome in TRUE spirit and
talent from less traditionally cinematic societies. They are little more than
patronised, and we (those who do need to learn as we have the tanks guns bombs
and ruin their planet with our pollutants) are never challenged or made to
think. Just smile along with everyone else who have been told be appalling
(nowadays 'woke) critics who know nothing about inspiring cinema.
Killing Fields made us -
Western Whitey...cry for a brown man. Because it showed us so beautifully he
was better than a hundred of us put together. (whilst Withnail - watch it a few
times and after the hype has worn off, you will see...very little in fact - it
is a dull badly written film about not much new..)
I know the great films... those
that just may wake you up to being a slightly new and more enlightened version
of who you already are inside.
And i know no other point OF
sitting through a few hours of screen...
take not... excepting Columbus
2017 i have found nothing in the films of the last 15 ish years of note... and
at least 75% if not more lead characters when theyre feeling a bit miffed or
stressed by normal real life...always seem to be popping the 'xanax;' or some
variant of prescription narcotic... methinks a bit of a problem creeping
in...because intellectuals know that strategy never works..is the very opposite
of how to live...never mind live well and grow
my list is good. Real. and i
know Socrates would agree with every word... (Plato and Aristotle a bit dodgy
on major things like....women should be DOING things in films not only having
things DONE to them...as in all Sorrentino films i believe...)
And put Babette Feast against many older films or films of
USA - Babette alone has her
kingdom...and she uses it only for good. She does only what she wishes... and
not to hurt anyone.
great writing can be found in other places than the standard "classics"
and can be used as perfect allegory on a radio interview with lass as to describe
BBC "so what are the court systems like that you wish to protect the right to report on FULLY...you two?"
"Keith let me ask my equal assistant to provide the script.. thank you sweetpea.... now as she was reading recently... Mister Adam's page on the Vogons so perfectly sums it all up... i need say no more than read it out for your listeners.."
THE ONLY
'mindfulness; and new age newspeak newwords...or is it 'newthink' they call it
- sort of postmodernish (doesnt exist!) selfish thought about personal feelings
and emotional intelligence - which does exist a bit but you need to LIVE life
and crap to develop it the real version....... crap of the last 20+ years on mind
body and soul, and how to look like you aren't rally wearing makeup when you
still have a very expensive foundation on...and botox, the rich babe variety...
book...concept....one
sentence which is all you need to ever know...from Mister Taleb's superb Black
Swan..
a ferkin
allegory.. though the one dimensional (described above) are too fanatical ever
to read between the lines.
to
paraphrase a tad but i have a lifetime of study and ponderation and real life experiencing
others how their ways, cures, therapies....dont work on ANYone -
especially themselves...no matter how much they are cheating you out of for
their mindfulness courses..
(i do
their land... rusty carelessly discarded tools... broken down fences... compost
heaps filled with plastic... i never opine i only deal in facts)
YOU
CANNOT GET CHANGE FROM A MENU... all such is expensive self obsessed
hospitality... hospitality is fake.... real life requires taking the plunge -
jumping over the cliff... doing something else...and.. Mister Taleb's superb
all you need to ever know about mind body [yes body too as angst and confusion
wrack it with pain and contortion in ways you cannot know until...they have
GONE! ..once yur mind is different] and soul and one simply cannot ever
ever ever know how one will 'feel' 'think' 'BE' until the event has happened.
That event can be anything from first ever time in a dusty gaolhouse, to doing something
you spent your whole life avoiding quite deliberately - having to speak in
public or to a judge or just not having a shower week and getting on a bus, to
having to hustle for every meal...to having a front tooth drop out and after
being horrified but in time realising in fact it makes you speak more
thoughtfully to hide the lisp and look of a bar room drunk... or best of all
being 'stuck' in a place populated only by lost fakes who steal from anyone
they can to afford their next mindfulness retreat ... and no friends in
truth.... but knowing in time being forced to remain in the last place on earth
you would chose to be for many year well known reasons - somehow makes the very
best of your inside persona stronger and maybe even helpful to others one
day... never mind stoical...
many
other better examples. There are however NO examples of how some decadent or dilettante
behaviour enhances ... it doesnt work that way. There are no examples of how
running away positively 'evolves' ditto... there are NO examples of how
relying on anyone for basic needs who one is in some worker relationship with
or sucks up to ever helps... there are examples of how having to rely a bit on
truly useless ignoramuses... you know are so....does 'help'
Mister
Taleb. the only king of Mind Body and Soul
Even if
the ignoramuses put it in the economics section.
thousand sof books to give away free...
This July.
THis Sait Exuppery is worth it - being on the 'list' if for o other reason that for one line only towards the end he gives us all we ever needed to know about ALL humanity..
Saturday last in the town of the dentist - too late to have found at
last my perfect hat ?
poncy arts bag has chargers for 2 oldish... wonky laptops and all the nonsense you need to
keep a phone ticking over... it, battery pack if on awful whatsap - so so
narcissistically power hungry.
But then none of these books except the REALLY good ones..
i nearly forgot him!!
so dated yes...so wrong on inventing the word 'soulmates' - wait til yer
fucked up the jaxi by one of them.... then you'll find out
how wrong Camus was... no point living ever...
THE grea bok on helpmeet collaboration 1 + 1 = 3 to help save the actual
real environment - their back yard- wilderness under threat
3 are needed... the combined effect of 1 and 1 together does apart
from providing backup if the landowners come and kill one of you - who will
feed the ferrets or hedgehogs or goats or ponies or...
give you the oomph to
do it
propper and
win
Lesley and Richard
Bridge Across Forever...
( I RATHER INFAMOUSLY GAVE AWAY MY LAST COPY HAHH HAHH)
i say to anyone these days
after my very best friend in the world helped me by
spreading poisonous incorrect gossip about me in front of an old woman suicidal
i had recruited her to help me with caring...til i discovered what a fake she
was - all for lonely self pity and to hide her truly guilty conscience...she
conned even me as everyone later laughed and i thought i was immune hah hahh...
after 2010 that is and a certain writer ..of fiction, for others who then
harmed me on her behalf... thank you - skin as tough as leather baked in the
real sun..
and its good to never ever be afraid of anyones
words ever... and that takes a lifetime of hard work
A famous musical maestro... who told the truth once....sort godfather
but wouldnt share..
is 20 years of work on The Sublime..
before he isnt very sublime any more cos he is dead
with his personal book researcher for ten of those years...me..and the
person he knew was by LIVING the sublime, inheriting is living interest and beginning
a decade ago to speak and write about it better than him...
so he never found 'it'.. because its for us all ..if we can pin her down
that is.
I did in 2020.
One day i shall write it - but the deal is i KNOW that we all need to
come to it without the involvement of another because then we can truly trust
'it. ..unmitigated. Uncorrupted.. pure..
so he did the right thing in he end - his....even if he never found that
which i 'fond' in that last few sentences. Anyone wo shows a child or any
other human a 'religious;' or theosophical' or 'spiritual' way that they say
will benefit them...is doing the exact opposite of benefiting them. It will
come to you....when the kairos comes..
just so happens for me 17 years ago.. reinforced by events 2010..
I still have utterly no idea what the 'powers' or 'disembodied intelligence'
consider the RULES to be..for 'us'....what the 'deal' is... and anyone that
says they do or writes it for money,,, is a fraud. Ponzi scheme operator.
As of course was he too... fab conductor though - changed our lives always sat
front row a decade at his gigs... if i were honest apart from enjoying learning
his art by always sitting next to him...so dad could fantasise about what he
would like to be dong with all those gorgeous sexy uptight nervy looking
violinists too...
THE most interesting picture in UK academe about UK academe - except one
is missing
Muster Bernhard's Extinction....
because UK academe does not and will not 'teach'
the master of all modern life philosophy and glorious sedition.... because he
uses as vehicle a light parody on academe...and it is TOO good for UK
academe...
as the pinnacle of UK academe Mister Grayling
proved to me last time we met for an hour...
anyone that went to any so called Redbrick uni sue
for your money back
Load of effete creeps every single professor and
fellow (as is the photod man above...or was)
THE greatest book of the last 70 years and they
never heard of him....
BUt then when the same man tells me that he insists
all his students read one story from one of these books..
One you will read a review in your evil latterday
Gardian about it being about a duffed up woman who goes to gaol...
when it is only a universal book in fact about the
'light' and human soul in a magnificent poetical way, in the face of tyranny
their (Guardianthink) tyranny to review it as such
as there is NO self pity in it
and we learn
we never learn from self pity or any pity
certainly the greatest book this c
then we have
the other
Includes a story that is so so so bleak - as
bad as The Road in fact worse..
that a man charged with inspiring young people
makes young people read a story where a young person must be sacrificed in a
rather nasty way every now and then.... and everyone knows of the long
lingering death of said child... to save the rest of the children, and everyone
else..
is worse than the fuckin death cultist self pitying
big fat book called the Christian bible...
even if all words even malicious thieving words such as the
whole bible in toto can be used to advantage now and again – has some great
lines in it “let your yea be yea and nea be neigh..” basis of all civilisation.
Hate the sin not the sinner - basis of all therapeutic culture even if they
cant teach it etc
never
even if there is every reason
ever
Soon, this may be legible.
Lots of typos and misstypings to fix when the summer weather ends soon.
Oh yes, unlike my suite of .com
s... mine - a range of diaries slam poetry sites and the TRUTH about the most
useless environmentalists ever not created as they are fake. And a few other
things besides..
this is .blogspot.com because
it will last forever ...(no credit card payment required) whereas, as the truly
glorious year of 2020 showed us...as do many other great works of
literature...anything can happen such as one may not be able to afford the
dotcoms.. one day...maybe soon
this is not a blog it will be
turned into one stand alone webpage soon... unless something else just as
groovy as the last few months happens to interrupt...rather happily
ooh... pages below updated today...far better than before
plus there are THREE 'cloaked' pages alongside thus webpage, that only three
special peeps have the links to..
One... my what a fake. And said a writer too..
The second, oh well our six months of hill walks together during the
paradise winter of my illicit girls riding club...."oh my how lovely it is
that we have stopped as a society and... we walk walk with the mounted
girlies and talk...everyone else hiding away from not much at all.....talk
about what REALLY needs talking about ... no one has time to talk...or
help...our neighbour..." nope...t only took a year to revert to type...
And the third...god only knows.
But it is a great privilege to have been invited to those 'pages' ...of
this, that are a book even better than Silas...one day. And the final chapter
is as yet unwritten
Meanwhile i cannot write it because in Silas Eppie DOES the act...
THE act....she choses to stick HER finger upto the middle class
bourgeoisie...scum child thieves who would have a child around to make
themselves only look good..
SHE is the actor... it woz Eppie that did it... the truly greatest 'it'
in all of literature...
at the end.
And 'she' still lives within
me
And i have no equivalent heroine... yet
why it is the greatest book of all time....even if one the way to her Silas
sticks is finger up the evil church....shame he wasn’t here today..
This person - i assume I am one, rather than
a hologram, is always up at dawn every day NO MATTER what train wreckage i
encounter. And my purpose in life for many years - 10 in this phase of life,
has been to photograph and write little essay about the truly interesting piles
of twisted metal, and minds...i know none that are 'mindful' except my own.
In respect of holograms - a proper science
book by Gell Mann late 90s was a far and wide series of interviews with top
physicists and other theoretical scientists from mathematicians to astronomers,
about what they thought some 'fundamental' nature of' reality' was and the
largest cohort of respondents' views was that we live in some kind of VR
state or holloraphic whatever...
Me i adore mine if that is the case. And it
is ten times more fun than Candide ever had. And i am constant...meaning every
day for 20 years - well barring a little hiccup for a few months back then, I
am up at damn exact same state of mind - or rather it just gets more pleasantly
energised as the years go on. So if it is a 'hologram' at last the engineers
have got their ferkin act together and mine runs jolly smoothly. Alas i cannot
say the same for anyone else i meet. And i don't 'meet' people i try and
get to know them well - at a compassionate level - looking for their deeper
humanity.
Anyway bully for me. I was listening to a
writer speaking to https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Meghan_Daum
a few days ago - she the ONLY modern essayist
and thinker i can tolerate – and i have the last 5 yeas searched far and wide -
Rubin/ sam HArris, all their so called 'Intellectual Dark Web' children,
are children. especially throw-his-toys-out-of-the-pram Peterson.. professoring
how to set the world the worst ever
example having got HIMSELF hooked on prescription medicine then making it
somehow someone ese's 'responsibility' (when as a 'professor' of medical
science surely he should have known BETTER..in y dusty ittle rural backwater
village and small town of being raised...by fellow humble folk at local pubs
age 16 ..after being mentored by loving yeoman old Ralph we knew age 16:
nick mum's vallium .. there lies the road to certain ruin...
Anyway, sadly, after three years
searchin....i still dont have a few others to join me in this list of great
culture - or better put wisdom... that taught me that if Jordan is
a self pitying melodramatist and incidentally appalling rhetorician - only
Meghan is great in that department...with her wry ways..
self taught i add. via mainly great lit, but
a little art house cinema too, and a lot of the RARE thing the last 7ish years,
truly good radio documentary AND just as important te afternoon play...
thats essentially been destroyed by
saccharine pityful crap that now floats on top of everything. Except the very
best book of this century - Rachel's Mars Room
Anyway - worst word to start a sentence with
ever, even if a few weeks ago i had arise a superb opening sentence to a book
on the only interesting person i have met for years - she needs novelising to
say the least as there is so much to learn in there, but it wont be for me...
to ever say a word.
Anyway, i work to the seasons. Estelle if you
are nozing in ...The summer i roam and enjoy the bits of the Marches and
even into Mid Wales which havent been turned into factory farming concentration
camps...or tourist destinations for fat smug motorbike tourers from Midlands...my
what a pandemic of them we now have...who incidentally have never read a book.
I know as i gently quizz many a week. And now stop my quizzing of anyone again
ever.
And being as i have never been in a better
mood in my life - for months...well three years, but especially the last two
months. Off we go - your list will be improved a lt over the next few months.
That said, i can fix anything....except her it
seems... and in the winter i fix up - maintain wonky oldish laptops
so that i have a few which may last the summer me rather wandering rather like
George Borrow...but no alcohol involved ever - well i am not a 'recovering'
alcoholic like every other teetotal one meets in this truly sick shopping
Aisle.. so i can drink normally if i wish - despite being in my 20s
certainly an 'addictive' personality nutjob... though as a professional pilot
20 years(St Exuppery planes only - i went back down from airliners to being St
Ex as that form of flight is simply so much more human in a way...to be
continued)i had to pass sanity medicals once a year so have never had a screw
loose...and had a sanity test in 2010 after the usual Kafkaesque crap you get
attacked with in uk....especially if you are a famous free speech - or
better put, anti corruption writing, actual 'activist' - the word all
young silly people steal....activist (never even damaging a flower on the
Ministry of Justice's lawn, never mind any personal attack or violent act
ever) means paying a HUGE price in figurative blood...
As Solzhenitsyn found..
Anyway...laptops and chargers and everything
so rickety even if i look after everything to the nth degree... keyboards with
sticky leys.. internal batteries need changing as everything is crap these days
especially new Dell laptops and Lenovos... only a few years old.
Bu,i never give up....and all hardship if you
have lovely good real literature in you - not that there has been much for the
last 20 years except Rachel..oh yes Ove too.... and a little of
made me cry at the end..those very best kinds
of tears..... and a woman i gave a copy too apparently she cried too, who sadly
hadnt read it well as all she could do was cry for herself in the 'pandemic'
despite living in the most glorious isolated rural farm up high ever...
Books are to make you grow the fuck up...not
turn you into infantilised rabbits like the likes of Mrs Oliphant always something
to moan about. Or seek a fey attention through some ‘vulnerability.
I met a yank on Saturday - a grown up.... she
didnt mind my extreme scholarly but humane cheek... "so do people read
Watership Down in your mad continent..?"
To my shock she knew it well ..
“So that's why you are such a fine mind and
also have true life in perspective...and clearly havet taken offence at my supposed
'cheek' all Brits nowadays would tarr one with...simply in what used to be
called Socratic dialog to find a sweet harmonious universal truth about the way
we are...”
which proved to me. Books fuckin matter ...
because that was about the best socratic chat ever - albeit i never speak to
young ones...only search for grown up women... and i mean 'grown p' in the
mental sense...
this must be done rite ...now!
when my laptop keyboard has been changed for
a new one...
well, if that one works any better - Lenovo
new 3 years ago CAME with a faulty keyboard...and despite being a lethal
human rights operator - now give up, no point..i never meet any
humans...well especially in uk, life is too sort to bother fighting with them
just to have at least ONEhing doing what it says n the box: work..
i an guarantee the culture on these pages do.
I was brought up (aside from my beloved RAlph
the yeoman had me under his wing) by the biggest load of lost fraudulent
mad hypocrites ever - so so dodgy they were - i would say later on in my
20s "they took the Times Telegraph and Observer religiously of a Sunday
[to show off] ..they clearly never read The Observer.."
I believe especially the books - and above
all Silas...but so many more too...served to fix..me
And 2020 was the year you can throw away all
your large library of science books - mine huge...Lee Smolin to the FAR better
geneticists than Dawkins such as Lewontin Kamin Rose ..Jay Gould...et al.. cos
the superb Lee Smolin became superb at last and did a yotube interview looking
a bit 'ill' it as to be said where he admitted " me inventing two strands of
string theory... i can tell you know..it could all be made up hocus pocus
we have absolutely not one smidgen of real knowledge as to reality...so maybe
folks should concentrate a little more on the beauty of the world we live
in...and the LOVE we can sometimes find with our fellow human..beings..."
fuckin A1 ....dont believe any 'expert'
...except me, on what is the culture that doest turn you into a lost angsty
prick and maybe just lets you breathe and become a little more.. Socrates - the
happy version.
or the most superb of radio plays such as Souter used to write, and
Mike Walker alone still can, it goes in a fair bit MORE.
Read a book containing the same material, it goes in fully and stays in for
life.
reason number 2
Imagination - horrendous bullshit UK education the last 20 + years .. the
Harry Potty years...speaks of feelings and 'empathy' and all that. Bullshit. We
only find empathy by LIVING through shit with people aside us living through
shit. I developed the true real lifelong empathetic love for black people for
example when in 2003 in a dusty hot gaolhouse for a few months my best
friend of all - whom i respected more than any other person there, became
Orlando from Ghana... an innocent man. Doing four years. With ONLY nobility.
And a sincere and beautiful smile. Always.
But what is imagination for? A few years later as i write about in my pages
in my name, i got laws changed especially a huge total legal cultural change
via the 'child' aspect of secrecy because i alone IMAGINED it should be
different. Even my own side ribbed me for being a fool to think i could.
Because i had read so many great books of literature by 2003 i imagined the
just and rightful out come. And held on no matter what to those outcomes. When
all around me cynically undermined. And i was only able to do that -
because i had developed a good imagination, via literature. i am nothing
special and had an extremely challenged moral compass in my teens and 20s,
especially by the man from Morgan Stanley, who adopted me later on... and
seemed to think it was good to train a man in his mid 20s to be a fraudster....
this i only figured last year.
But then yesterday a third reason maybe most important of all came out of
the blue crystal clear.
Of course.
starting mid 20s with everything Thomas Hardy ever wrote, and having
exhausted him, on to George Elliot...
And others...all Perriam, all Wolfe (overrated just as Wuthering
Heights is) , all RACHEL CUSK! superhero .... and in the last 5
years in fact ALL my favourite books except for Man Called Ove have been by
women - Faith Bleasdale Deranged Marriage - so wise, All early Wendy
Perriam is extraordinarily brave and knocks pathetic Ian McKewan off his
perch...then we have Mars Room - best book this century, For The Love of a Son
- taught me everything i need to know of true sad Islam stuff and their
men, and of late even the astonishing satire of How To Kill Your Family...
BETTER FULL LIST TO COME VERY SOON.
That must not include Wuthering Heights and Jane Austen because, sorry, we
have Mary's Frankenstein which clearly is one of the greatest books ever about
humans always picking on someone not quite as their in group is...
And the radio 4 dramatisation 12ish years ago of her magnificent book simply
was The Enlightenment drip dripping into my ears one evening when i had dozed
off in a caravan living awwfff grid...in minus 20.... cos all the Guardian
Reading tourists bought all the homes in the Hay on Wye region for their
second homes...or third...whilst no doubt over coffee and croissants in a cafe
in that awful Theme Park (more EXPENSIVE women’s clothes shops than bookshops
by far as of 12 years ago) saying " ohhh Henry did you see this article
all the poor folk of The Marches can no longer afford houses now the Londoners
bought them all ...how terrible for them... oh yes so what time is
our appointment at the agent's...and i do wish Kew Gardens would hurry up
and renew my car parking pass so i can do my morning yoga photo shoot and
keep up with the best lookin’ insta influencers ...amazing what that new
photoshopping program can do nowadays .."
The two aforementioned disaster turnings in fiction - Cathy defines herself
by a truly mad man..lost to the drink wethinks too.... who doesnt read
good books and just cares about looking like George Clooney..
it is not good to define yourself by, or die for ....a man... ever....And
this picture in Wuthering Heights is not reality. I am quite sure the great
majority of the non serf class even 175 years ago had ways of being just as
powerful as their male helpmeets... rewriting history is never a
good idea.
and frankly ditto in most of absurd Jane..
whereas George Elliot and to some extent Hardy far far more had their
women not goin nuts just cos of some family feud over money or the latest style
n expensive sexy mans boots.. and being largely women one could look up to and
certainly empathise with in intelligent ways ...as ones equal. specially
Hardy's Bathsheba... fucks up...as we all do... then she recognises a REAL man
with values...and they live happily ever after...sorry ..thats he most pro
woman sane book maybe ever..
At closing the last page of a great book by a woman, one is exactly equally
taken on a great journey as when a man with his art does the same. Books are
the great sex politics leveller reminding us it is all bullshit - those sex
politics - and i don’t refer to chopping off penises..i refer to ever
since George Elliot and it matters not what name she had to write in especially
when every fucker knew exactly who she was, women were the exact
equal on man. And deserved exactly equal respect. Fully part of the
Enlightenment and project to generally become modern. Period...or not..
And thus ... books must be above film.
Even if maybe one film did what few others can do, or set out to do, show us
the superb fun of children.
Captain Fantastic.
As enjoying kids for real, is all that matters, ever....all human rights and
modernity should flow from that
And i would like to know a few more films that do the same. Uncynically...
BUT... there is something deeper that LIVES within from item 3.
I have heard nothing but fey rubbish bullshit versions of 'feminism'
the last decade especially. And i listen to many an episode of Woman’s Hour...
and Meghan and search fro her equals elsewhere.
It is all crap. Because all that matters is that if we - everyone, knows
that women are exactly equally able to create the greatest of art/culture via
the greatest of novels, as they have been able to for 200+ years...then they
are exactly equal and are able to do anything a man can do with EXACTLY the
same intelligence and skill.
Axe chopping aside where a woman is said to be able to manage about 90% of a
man's muscle build...
but 90% is just fine..
Thing is also they should be held to 100% of the same standards of propriety
in all walks of life be it false allegations or just sane communication without
claiming false hurt.
THAT is what honouring these equally great writers of the past in act
is. Knowing no more argument. Behave...as they showed us how to...
SERIOUS work to do on this, Estelle if you do nose in, this is a many year planned list of culture that i feel enhances our spirit.
And example - we all watched the THREE COLOURS films in early 80s and they changed us.
Many important films of the 70s and 80s - e.g. Deerhunter, similarly changed us. But some were bleak - its as if 'postmodernity' almost started around then. But there were far less slightly cynical movies that...well, changed me
Even having travelled earlier the Far East, one didn't really understand the people, and seeing the superb acting of Dith Prahn's role https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dith_Pran
well, if one does not fall in love with him and his extraordinary bravery ...and even cry hearing of his death as i did, one is not fully human. Films like this change you for good reasons.
The beginning...
I know where to find all movies on pirate sites or other free sites
Abel Gance's legendary silent epic, digitally
restored with a newly recorded score by Carl Davis, hits cinemas nationwide
from 11 November 2016 #BFINapoleon
in the humble opinion of one scribe - sadly only one for now, so so interesting!
I wonder if anyone has noticed: Throughout especially the second half, as all sorts of rather bad news if given to poor old Creon - he's a bit of a nutjob vicious one, and always the whole court is around him, when his peeps - his advisors and even the bearers of bad news, explain to him "ehhh... you reap what you sow old duffer" the whole context from the context of the way the courtiers act, to the dialog, to the acting out i am sure accurate representation of the original work, is that there is no comprehension - no possibility, that the old duffer will hurt the bearer of uncomfortable home truth.
This is quite astounding if you stop and think about it.
Painful home truths nowadays and probably even in Shakespeare's day would receive short shift and often the body shortening by the length of a head. But in this ancient play, even a modern representation which clearly shows a 'culture', or 'mindset' it is almost considered an honourable fine thing to be told what a twat you were... which is based on fair critique it certainly is. Indeed is civilisation itself. And in my opinion one couldn't imagine such a dialog (with context or 'evidence' the psyches are real rather than two faced) ...today...anywhere..
(maybe Bolivia?)
Zorba The Greek.
behind a paywall BUT I KNOW ALL THE PIRATE sites...
Certainly one of the greatest movies of all time, despite this scribe holding out with his nasty racial bias for several decades seeing it described so, internally pondering "no way some bloody dinosaur Greeks can manage to film something even half as good as If by Anderson...woke bullshit reviewing "
And discovering he was wrong.
And the sexiest sex scene in cinematic history, does not require even her stocking to be rolled down.... or any rude bits.
just gorgeous but what a daughter hater. Warwick's daughter played the violin in the soundtrack and it's as good as her dad's utterly mindfuckingly gorgeous real tale of real people and yet you can't get her violin plucking anywhere
This page in development. Summer I am not often at a plug for the day. All hurried. Will be finessed in autumn.
A list to add to my blue book - photographed - if i die find it !! :-)
Unplanned, because for me the summer is for days at the river, the list can now be added to. I have many other things to stick in it after the last time working on the blue book. And all of a sudden i have the best team member ever - who wants to share...
All of a sudden perhaps I could say that I have at last a compañera.
This word like so many, such as 'saudade', has online a bimbo dumbed down translation. Or at least within the more prominent online pages. The sense, the spirit of the word, is entirely absent. Compañera usually means someone on the same side; us against 'them'. And the us is generally an 'us' who resist the corporate crony conservative and military industrial complex agenda.
Because this is an 'agenda'. If one is 'right thinking people', or in slightly longer simple form: egalitarian, green and sustainability minded, progressive, and into universal human rights, then one needs a decent real education. And in a culture of so much overhyped rubbish, knowing what the truly effective great works are, is hard. And i didn't have the time to search most of them out, alone.
And thus if there can be two, that is only a worthy coupling.
Because the most sane version of " the definition of insanity is..." is that quite clearly, though a great work, we didn't need Affluenza to tell us it really was going all wonky. Because the net results have been quite apparent for a good decade or two.
And thus.
There is a lot of work to do.
But what is the end product. The best to aim for. Which is terribly hard in that of course 'relative' is the most important word. Both meanings.
Her extraordinary dad allowed her to "fly" as she says but i know he "allowed" a lot lot more.... and relative to many with that background she flew in a way that is extraordinary; but relative to all her contemporaries - age and ... i just don't know wat that next word should be. Relative to our lot....
Sorry there are two universes and I cannot see any young person born here no matter what class or background, even able to see into the universe she inhabited the moment she said to her Talib types in essence "I feel sorry for you...you missed... now it is time for the re-match"
but then
the times i have said
" if you haven't time for the whole thing, start at about 27 minutes in... but you may find the section that starts from 28 minutes is worn out and inaudible..i have watched it so many times.."
Because truly laughing at oneself is an art that does so much more than educating the audience, it educates the world as it did me, that her people are just as perfectly equal in every single aspect of being human such as the greatest rhetoric ever ... and if it doesn't change you, as it did me, well, watch it again.
THE COMBINED LIST
To be compiled August - sept 2022
Come back E if you are nosey...
Its just for you...
Ok another not yet born
child perhaps, too, in twenty years time.
Never on a Sunday
but... the line on Socrates Plato and Aristotle " it is a search for happiness"
I think i can do better - the last decade, it is a search not to be yourself and live better through real communal activity - be clear, real collective stuff has really bad phases too...
Just for...well.. there was one day we had our long day - week in fact, doing our rounds ONLY to educate...
E and D tarting around in blue rooms of ITV.
E at radio 1 for her interview.
(NB - never ever give all away without some side benefit - never...its all a game after all, "when you've finished the make up...ohhmy... i haven't had time for a few weeks or spare cash the way y lass gobbles anything in site... would you do me please a free haircut.."
