a so so so private and quickly knocked up page - i am
communication expert - it often featured in serious court cases i did for
others...phones are a disaster.. that horrid little screen is an abyss. So i
put this here to be maybe perused on a laptop...
it must never be seen by certain people....
The militaristic step family were dangerous (she may have disengaged
from?) are so so so utterly hatefully racist and against ALL progressive
societal causes..... (20 years ago they hated it that i had brown friends in my
house and their attitudes my daughter needs saving from being infected by their
skin colour... deep down..total BNP..as are most Polish as it happens and many
from that part of the world...)
Older step sibs (i only ever met one once in Bolivia) joined
serious military.. a decade ago they tried to fuck me online.. probably
have tried to hack and otherwise destroy me online... certainly they
controlled her phones emails etc etc for years... my daughter had i think 4
different mobile numbers over a decade..its all too weird for me... beware...
Operation Silas....
Marner – the greatest character in literature (not me i was never a lost
misery guts – partially selfishfey boy until 30 years ago i devoted myself to
Kate and 3 young kids and she never even let me get to first base – though we
were at 4th base from day one as she trusted me with her
infants and that continued full on near 2 years). Silas created by a
woman.
As stated philosophically if..if.. there is no ‘need’ – it is all simply
so unnecessary..
IF Heidi wishes to have a go engaging with lost lass, i must not input.
I have spent years telling others the story - there is NONE :-) ...
maybe preparing them for maybe some meet with my lass if they offered it –
there were times it would have been easy – find her coming from school or she
worked in a bar in Brecon (too young!).
Except one thing.
(context)I am a many year expert child psych sort of worker – working as
lay legal in true crisis with parents in deep shit with social services .. late
00s to mid 2010s top judges would congratulate me to my face for bringing some
peace and functionality in damaging family wars..
THIS:
BODY LANGUAGE is key. A look (if on digital video even) a tone to the
voice...
And any communicant can only have truly good body language if they at
least have a (mental) picture of the verifiable relevant real story.
My lass and I there is too much - but nothing. The nothing is
all that matters.
I mean nothing by this: as of winter 2010 and in fact we had a
theoretically tough time – we were between houses – having had a 7 year tenancy
in a large old farmhouse in Hills by Hay Bluff horribly stolen by a lying mad
old woman (everybody knew) , so that autumn into winter living in a lovely
riverside caravan site - though had next tenancy lined up
and signed for; dad had taken up properly with proper partner and we
were sort of drifting towards living with her in her fairy-tale old farm atop
Pen y Fan... and that winter was deep snow regularly...snowed in at Pen y Fan
several weeks... (and her mother had declared awful nuclear war
first stage autumn 2009 – and even one night deserted her daughter at school -
not collected her and left her unpicked up after an evening event...) . New
woman was up the duff though we didnt then know – miscarried due stress of then
January stuff.
Despite – and it isnt ‘despite’ – during such a harder transition
period, as her life had ALWAYS been for the decade leading up – NO problem. No
issues.. she was extremely happy, healthy, and doing extremely well in every
aspect of life at school and in life in all sorts of ways... and in fact early
winter 2009 she had a magnificent mature response to some problem with music
she studied with my people my end.. it was very tough for her a famous musician
had carefully explained how utterly crap the music teaching at her school had
been and it caused distress but after pulling out bas lead recorder player in a
big pageant at school in church harvest festival– she blew a fuse she was so
upset.. a week later she approached them and said she would indeed
headline... she decided that alone.. so so proud of her maturity
..after several days of tears ... (they knew we had discovered their
utter crap tuition as Esti wanted to do her official Oxford board recorder
exams but was advised not to because the school couldnt even train her in pitch
it was discovered...despite huge effort doing practice with her of the lessons
they Gave.. thats Wales for you – a con country)
And.. (as per an earlier email to Heidi... ) due the madness of the
other household from 2003 (and my awareness, sorry Rev.. UK number 1 evil false
allegation centre of universe – many times encountered this in others
cases) i had often in a day taken many many ‘protection’
films – a bit of a chore but in fact i taught my daughter filming via that
need...7 years...
BODY LANGUAGE:
ALL was totally superb and well January 2010..
ALL.. and dad has zillions of hours of film to prove..
And a few witnesses i would at that time collect..
And then over 12 ½ years nothing happened...nothing..
The few times it was possible to reengage with her - nothing
new
(in short she was partly smuggled out abroad – meaning the steps have a
dodgy property in S of France.. quite likely dodgy dealings.... the
polish grandmother working at a bank i strongly suspect maybe even some corrupt
practices... likely she was put over in Poland fair bit....anything
to make her impossible for me to bump into not that i ever played that game..
the stalking game.. )
From about summer 2015 age 17 – she had taken up with much older man
schoolteacher.. started drinking... (i was happy with the former in that maybe
he would help her mentally balance) she would get in touch at times
– never reply to my always ongoing every few weeks catch up emails prior... but
she wished engagement – or allowed it... 5 or 6 half days together never ever
one uncomfortable word... never..i was proud of both of us... (later
on a woman i knew a bit of a brain – never offered to help though !
Heidi the first ever... she said it was all contrived to hurt me – she was
being pushed back in my way, and then she would shutters down ... by the
Stockholm family – clan... this would happen over 3 years...) only
once ever even a crossish word on the phone – it wasnt it was superb...
remember my daughter was emotionally fraught about brexit...she
was... she was throwing away doing A levels... she was so hateful of
brexit and uk even... she said she would just go London .. dump career ideas..
i said one day “ est..truth of London... about 1/3 of women there for 200 years
are only able to afford to live if they are in one way or other on the game...
being subsidised by some man who paid for them “
She angrily gave the perfect answer (about 18) “ well its my business if
i want to go on the game !”
First and only time ever in the decade December
2017 after a simply wonderful day wandering Cochabamba together Esti got drunk
that night and her bubbling sad anger started to bubble....
(but i think the true bubbling issue was the girl from
Stockholm.. well older woman... i was v friendly to but she or her brother 6
years ago had committed a bad crime - its noted in video...and she
was in a mess i was there..i had no idea of this)
Following lunchtime they sloped off never to speak with hjer again...
tho i tried !
So..BODY LANGUAGE = there is nothing... no probs at all...
none... no events need apologising for or fixing...
And so much proof - cant lie to cameras continually... loads
of film showing she was in great nick up to 15 Jan 2010...
Body language = what an interesting person YOU must be...already she has
been slightly in 2 x latent revolutions with her backpack.. Armenia age 17
Bolivia age 18...
Though i know full well she was so many years after 2010 under such
weird headfuckery she may be a slightly dangerously warped person....(plus,
tragically at least 5 or 6 years from age 16ish being close in by
choice to extremely alcoholic men..i mean utter wasted men ....and i can see in
her photos in her face she has lived like them... ) caution....
.... oh.... ok Mrs’s.. as stated all i wish for her ..me too.. just a
healthy occasional dialog...i wont be visiting her in London – its full of
creeps... and many now dangerous – i even spoke to my best
schoolfriend by far on Sunday - i have known 40 years ... who has a
large 40 year successful ethical architectural practice... very perfect London
nice person life.... he was very very weird.... very...it was quite a shock...
Ohh.... her is one line i will trust the few i show this to that in fact
may be almost frightening...but no one knows of this not even my then (2015)
partner...
I know full full well her step family would have been capable of
anything and quite likely warped my lass a bit...
And uk social workers, courts, fuzzz are so dodgy it is daft.. many
proofs – i worked with top journalists on all that its well known....
Every word..every second..from 2015....i had a recorder in my pocket
picking it all up.... and its in a vault. Its rather good hahh hahh....
Oh and minor adjunct.. woman then turned out to have huge issues (and
thats evidenced she wanted a film made by BAFTA film director woman in 2010
about her... ) there was NO hedgehog or letterbox... she was an obsessive
taxidermist blessher...... one morning (when she was IN a film about her and my
daughter at same time discussions seriously under way..... or first
production stages !! with serious players..) i left a fresh (badger
eviscerated) hedgehog skin by her shop door i would often wander by as i had to
do my groceries a few doors away for years... her shop usually
closed she lived 30 miles away and was often too fucked up to work for days on
end it transpired
Very very very troubled lady made up loads a nonsense because SHE..no
one else.. said she would help my daughter (jan 2010) .. was adamant... go to
court, show them proofs from her all had been bril... but that was all lies...
she didnt have the backbone ..ran away from area to hide abroad..lied about
that even.... and of course turned on me the man she had lied to for some
time...nothing else in that...nothing...
(but we understood her i was loosely working with three top film and
media people - all mature women from London..on my side.. -
threaten social services with a nationally valid film team March
2010 til autumn “GET MY DAUGHTER BACK NOW..or we expose ..” they all understood
how deeply screwed up my recently ex partner had been as she had
most terrible issues with dad in childhood – true tragic stuff..
too. (bril actress hiding it) .. NB my daughter will never ever be
fixed..it doesnt happen...)
FURTHER CONTEXT
for Heidi - others have had this link
video in this page at bottomish
https://leftovers2022.blogspot.com/p/forgiveness.html
all links and pages are NOT indexed online please never use them with
mine or any other name online ever (i am so organised its daft i have 3
identities online... but that is only for purely ethical different kinds
of writing ..mainly on environment my real true passion..i give up no one ever
helps in uk.. )
AND..i am so so so bored of all this i hardly care... in fact Heidi's
such funny brave spirit maybe she will ENJOY the possible challenge... i mean
that ..ENJOY...
the body language is critical: all was well....shit happens.. have some
fun with the leftovers...
Helen will like this...one day after morning poo my lass looks at the
toilet paper and calls them 'leftovers' ..i near died of laughter ..and
admiration at her 7 or 8 year old mental genius...
.she should be a great writer one day..who knows..
