30th August.
An update.
I decided to leave off this.
What is 'this' - a thought that it would be good for you Estelle to engage with the only two women i have met for years that I sort of felt may have some life force that could somehow bridge things.
But i have reflected and i don't think anyone any more understands that to get involved with others stuff - especially in our situation when there are no rapids to traverse or sharks in the water; all was always calm...to try and be of assistance I don't think people want to hear as it being worthwhile. I just don't know
But there is something else.
Forced usefully and enjoyably to have down time reflecting of late, I pondered a reality: i was never ever disloyal to anyone in my family. I may well have decided to get aside of all of them very sensibly, early on but i never was disloyal. I never dobbed in the many hundreds of thousands sin cash my father would boast of tax avoiding, or the affair i saw him having. I never was disloyal even at his or others end.
I was oblivious but that is not being disloyal.
However someone - in fact everyone was more than disloyal to me, they were downright evil. Not one person even texted me never mind anything else to try and help you get in touch with me who as the whole legal system knew won as hands down as can possibly be, your custody. And the end point after many hundreds of thousand pounds your mother had spent on her lies, by the kindest and most expert expert in the UK was "mum could do with some therapy, dad is just fine" as everyone in my family knew.
I asked several if i should show you this. Wise older women with kids.
No one even has a human cup of coffee together to discuss.
One muttered she thought i should.
But even she is a fraud. Never found the time to help one chap with a daughter despite boasting of her 4 bonnie ones.
So here it is...
One day maybe you will see this. I think you should. And if she is still alive it will be your choice.
https://leftovers2022.blogspot.com/p/forgiveness.html
But i have so much time of mine wasted by completely incoherent - which means one has to keep ON subject til it is talked through, communication i forget what is where.
have this one too
https://leftovers2022.blogspot.com/p/operation-silas.html
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An unfinished letter
To be finished later today Saturday
but HERE is the truth of ALL of you..
your 'culture' in the UK especially is lying to you.
It affected my family from 50 years ago.
And ANY immigrant that came to London.
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1_Ref5eyEJGhfdpaMcQREJvIGDI5fVBZ2/view?usp=sharing
AND ...THE ... only great "ethnic" culture for at least 20 yeas be clear is the true genius Donald Glover and his series Atlanta
https://vumoo.vip/tv/atlanta-38582
(may work may not as superb vumoo has copy cats no time to check yet but i can get it)
but guess what it is better than ALL whitey culture put together...
dont pity the poor immigrant as Dylan once wrote
pity the london film school crapperatti peddling crap that ends up as only superb 'style' but no intellectual vigour
